i have officially lost myself. didn't know which way to go but here is where it got me. and i hate it. i don't like it. i don't love myself. i don't adore myself. i don't even want to be me anymore. i miss my old self. right now, i feel like crap. i feel like i'm the girl you can find on the streets, take me back home and just throw me back out. simple to say i feel cheap. no i have not give my virginity to anyone. it's the other way around. i hate this. i really really hate this. God must've hate me. i don't want to do this. please take me back in time where everything was fine. please. make time. i dont want to be here. i am so dissapointed with myself. why. why did i choose this. why did i choose to ruin everything that i am. i just simply hate my life for now. i don't want to do this anymore please. make it stop. please. build a time machine. let me change please. this hurts a lot. i want my old self back. i'm sorry. i'm sorry for myself. and for what i have become now. i don't like this i hate this. please make it stop. please save me please. i'm so disgusted with myself. 

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