i feel like the whole world is againts me. i don't want to be here. take me away. i want to go. i am so tired :( there's so much to say but so less energy to do such. it's not even my fault but they make it look like it is all my fault. they said that they are hurt and make it look like i was the evil one. i am not. just bcs i smile when you push me down it doesnt mean that i am okay. i am so sick. i can feel the hate you know. i can feel it deep in my bones. how is it my fault that your friend is with me now. how is that my fault when i just go with flow. how is it my fault that your crush is with me now. when you dumped him. how is it my fault. i lost my friends. i lost my best friends. and how is that my fault? i dont know what do you want from me. i've nothing else. do you really want me dead? bcs it hurts a lot. too much to be honest. its like 1 vs a million. stop bothering me i'm so tired. i think im losing my mind bcs at this moment right now, im doing things i should not. i want to die. i want to die. help me i want to die. 

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